new hair do comes new set of realistic goals

i decided a long time ago that i would make conscious choices that will only give me sheer bliss to my personal and professional life, and the fact that i transformed my signature curly long locks, to this more chic new look speaks volumes for that perspective. also, i decided that i will now focus my efforts on prioritizing my health so w/ me riding my bike to work at least 4 times a day, i realized that i need to monitor my food & alcohol consumption. so after much research online, i decided to begin a 3-day fad diet to help kickstart my wellness program to greater lengths than ever before. this will be my outlet to verbalize my feelings and thoughts as i go thru this process, and my goal is to be less lazy and grow out of my comfort zone. i'm trying to retrain my mindset into becoming a motivator for my own self-awareness. and perhaps losing an add'l 15 lbs may be another reason to pursue this yet again.

day 1: starting weigh in 145 lbs at 5'2 1/2 in height

• 9:05A morning meal - included a slice of wheat toast w/ a tsp of PB, and a 1/2 grapefruit w/ my herbal tea.

• 10:15A snack - 2 glasses of water and Wrigley's Doublemint chewing gum (1 stick)

• 11:45A lunch meal - 1/4 cup of canned tuna (drained) and seasoned w/ just black pepper, a slice of whole wheat toast w/ tsp of PB

• 1:30P snack - 1/4 cup of mixed nuts (almonds, cashews, walnuts, pine, pistachio, and assortment of others, 1 small gala apple

• 1 palm-sized boneless chicken (grilled), seaons w/ pepper, 1 cup of beets, and 1 cup of string beans w/ large glass of H20

my financial woes!

if only i could figure out how to change my financial woes of "bills" to a fortune of opportunity and luck. do u think my life would be that more simpler and easy-going? doubtful, but i can only wish, right?!

so i had no choice but to tap into my savings to pay off my credit card bills. that's the reality we live in so it doesn't matter if u pay your bills on time anymore, because w/ this whole economic mess, i'm guessing it'll take another 3 to 5 years to recoop much of our losses from this year alone.

i'm wishin' for some1 to whisk me & my boys to somewhere far far away. . .bueno aires sounds good around this time of the year.

love is a losing game, indefinitely!

for lil' over a year, i've allowed this man, named paul anthony hayes, to enter in my life and be a part of my inner circle. i'll admit, that it's been a helluva emotional rollercoaster ride 2 say the least, and i'm beginning 2 realize that being in a exclusive & commited relationship shouldn't b 'bout dramatics, however, it's been our story after the 3-month timetracker had counted down.

i am fully aware that i may have been blindsided 2 allowing myself knee-deep w/ the notion of love and that getting involved so quick and soon may have resulted 2 why i am feeling so inadequate and lost w/ my emotions thus far.

paul and i have shared many intimate moments, and that we have a deep connection 4 one another. however, it seems that we can no longer be on a page that calls for mutual trust and respect. and what saddens me that despite our commitment and the undenying love we have 4 eachother, it seems that it may not b enuff 2 salvage our relationship. my hope is that someday we can look past our flaws, and find some common ground that would be incredible than the two of us combined, & become potentially, friends w/o the attached "benefits" factor.

i wish you well, my dearest paul, and that if we happen 2 cross paths in some form or fashion either here in san diego, ca or may be out in samoa (god willing), than may be it's a sign that our souls were destined 4 an absolute greater power, that may direct us 2 what we ultimately need 2 do allow ourselves 4 closure. take care of thy self and know that you will have a special place in my heart, indefinitely.

forever yours. . .julia

MY month to SHINE!

so it's the start of another month. . .OCTober! and i jst felt compelled and enthused 2 blog 'bout how opportunities can culminate when u least x-pect it.

jst a bit of a backstory on what had transpired thus far, basically i've been employed at an Aerospace company for 7 years, and for the past 6 1/2 yrs, my position seemed to b at a constant stance simply because i wasn't doin' my part 2 become motivated in following thru on improving my skillset level in my current IT/MIS profession. finally, i began to reassess my priorities at the beginning of this year, and i've made the realization that it is now or never to pursue that goal of what would give me that opportunistic edge overall else, redirecting my career path into SAP consulting.

in mid feburary, it started off w/ me inquiring to my director of how myself can manuever into a different department, and from then on, i've been on this pursuit from several informative meetings w/ managers/consultants, not to mention shadowing/training sessions, and although it's been quite a slow and steady pace, but a pace nonetheless. my hope is that after all of this is said and done, that i can look back and say w/ sheer delight, that it was all worth it.

remember, that if you believe it enough w/in yourself that changing careers especially at a point in your life that compels u 2 think outside of the norm and/or box, than it's definitely a journey worthy of pursuit. . .keep u posted on how it all turns out!